How can I continue living with my ex for the next two weeks?

For three years, I have been with my boyfriend. I had a rough home life and got kicked out at 17. I moved in with him, and we have been together for three years. During this time, I always supported myself. I paid half the rent. All the furniture was...

mine. I bought the groceries, household items, etc. For awhile, it was working. We were happy. Albeit our relationship wasn't the best in the beginning. He cheated on me with his ex, got caught up in some gang activity and landed in jail. She picked up his phone when I called, and there you go! It turns out that she was living with him. After a month, he called me and like the fool that I was, I went back with him, and been with him ever since. However the past six months of our relationship have been hell. I am a smart girl. I go to college and I plan on going on to graduate school. We are different ethnicities and come from different worlds. I guess you could say that we were moving in different directions. He was set on making it big his way, with cars, mechanical, etc...and I was ...alone? He never wanted to know what was really going on with me. It was always about him, and his dreams, hopes and aspirations. He didn't know me anymore. The past six months I have been in therapy for an eating disorder, and he never noticed that anything was wrong. My weight kept going down and he never realized. I was so upset and alone. Then one night I got drunk with his friend and we kissed. We were not so gone that we didn't realize what we were doing. However, this friend I've had a crush on for a long time. I never did anything about it because it was only a crush and I was content with my relationship. But then...things kept on progressing. I found myself falling for this guy. For three weeks we were both racked with guilt as I cheated on my boyfriend. Then the *&%# hit the fan when my boyfriend read my journal. He confronted me and was angry, but wanted to make it work. Sadly I didn't. I felt that the relationship was past salvaging. It took me weeks to find an apartment, and up until now, he has been so horrible to me. He took all the jewelry that he gave to me and told me that I didnt desearve it. He told his family and friends what happened, and now I am forever branded as a cheater. He threatened to burn this guy's car, made disparaging remarks and texts to this guy, trying to pick a fight with him. He held me down on the bed and gave me a hickey, telling me to go and show it to my new man. My new boyfriend was so angry, I had to cry and beg him to just let it go and not start a fight. I don't want to start trouble and I know my ex will fight dirty. So now I tip toe around him. I have two weeks until I can move in my new apartment and until then I am living on ice. I tell my ex that I was wrong, and that I will always care for him and I am grateful for the experience he gave me...but just please let it go. I feel like such a horrible person. Am I?

No I don't think so!! He was being a real as*s to you. I understand that you've been living together for a long time, but people change. He clearly isn't what he used to be. HE doesn't deserve YOU. Cheating is always wrong, but it sounds like your relationship with him was past gone.. just stick with this other guy, and good luck staying out of your ex's way!

NO WAY he was in the wrong, he's being selfish he should've known how to respect and care for you. You shouldn't feel guilty as you feel that things weren't working out tho you should've ended the relationship with him a long time ago. sometimes you just need to go with your intentions & you deserve to be with your current boyfriend anyways. like you said you're a smart girl & you deserve whats best for you. At the time being, you should stay at a friends or relatives place till you move to your new apartment.