Suicidal thoughts

I have clinical depression. Im 15 and im always sad. I worry a lot as well. I wake up feeling panicked for weeks at a time. I have become so miserable that I have begun to have suicidal thoughts. Im very scared. Im afraid to go to school. Im always sad...

and I cry all the time. Nobody seems to take me seriousky when I ask for help. My friends seem to think immnot serious, my parents wont see anything they dont want to see. I dont want to get locked up in a psych ward because I live in a small town everyone will find out and think im nuts. But I do want help. I see a therapist it doesnt help. I feel like im in a black hole ill never escape. I fell in love and the boy and I had an argument last night and he pretty much stated he doesnt care how I feel anymore. I dont want to die but it seems like the only way out. Where can I go to get help? If I tell someone, will they lock me up?

 
Don't give up. If necessary, consider changing therapists. Maybe the one you are currently working with isn't the best one for you.

Don't let things get you down. Many things, at your age, seem like they are "end of the world" events. Not so. You will grow from them and end up being more mature, knowledgeable and happy as a result of them.

 
You are at an age where hormones, emotions and even your brain are undergoing strong changes. It is natural to occasionally feel confused or depressed.

The best thing you can do is to talk to a counselor or therapist. Barring that, find someone you can communicate your emotions and thoughts with, sort of like a sounding board. Keeping your thoughts to yourself doesn't help. If you can't find someone around you then consider Fun Mailing someone on Fun Advice whose advice you like. It's relatively private and gives you a good sounding board.

Check out the link below for information on teen depression.

 
Information on teen depression:

http://www.helpguide...

  
If you are having problems or are depressed, below are a couple of sites that may help you:

Worldwide:

Check out the Befrienders link below. They are not only a suicide hotline but also offer help to people who are stressed or are in a state of depression.

http://www.befriende...

In the U.S.A., you also have access to:

Boys Town National Hotline

Call With Any Problem, Any Time

1-800-448-3000

http://www.boystown....

Fun Mail a "sounding board"!

I would assume that you can't talk about what you are going through with anyone because it is too personal and you don't want others to know about it in relation to you.

The solution, then, might be to pick someone on Fun Advice whose advice you like and Fun Mail them. (You can check out the quality of someone's advice by clicking on their name; going down to their recent advice, click on view all, then click on the questions that might interest you and view their answers.) Explain to them that you are having problems and want to have someone to use as a "sounding board" and would like to know if they would be willing to be your sounding board. Fun Mail is basically private, so you shouldn't have any concerns about your privacy.

Although there are many users on Fun Advice who would be qualified, I'd suggest the person be an Advisor, for two reasons: First, most Advisors have several hundred or even thousands of Answers under their belt which can really give you a perspective about them; and second, you can simply click on the Advisors link at the top of the page and view a list of the most recently active Advisors with information about them AND a total of their Answers. (Don't contact them by that "Ask me a question" link. That's public. Instead, click on their name which will take you to their Profile page, then click on the "Send me Fun Mail" link on the left side of the page.)

You also have the ability to Fun Mail anyone (Advisor or otherwise) by clicking on the "Send me Fun Mail" link near the top of the Answer under the person's name.

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I would look into anti depressants.

well just know your not alone in that boat. I've been there and tried killing myself and I never fall through with it because in my heart I know I will hurt someone else if I do. just remember even though people arent taking you serioursly they do love you. and when you feel like hurting yourself just picture the person you love the most that loves you the most standing right next to you. there is also a lot of suicide help lines that you can call that dont judge you and you can tell them fake names so they cant find you and they just listen to you and talk to you I've called before and it helped try it if not I have a few other ways if your intrested let me know and I try and help because no one believed me either untill I started cutting myself to ease the pain. not recomended they are other ways just know lots of people have been there

I was very similar to you and still kind of am. I have these thoughts too. I talk to my mom about and she gives me advice, but not much. I have tips for fighting back those thoughts:
-remember to enjoy life. find a hobby you enjoy...drawing, writing, ect.
-keep a diary. write all your emotional thoughts in it. write why you think this is the only way out. and then write why life is valuable to you.
-remember all those people who love you. your parent and friends... you are very lucky to have friends. I don't have many friends but I'm still pulling through. think how sad they would be without you. don't be selfish. think about how you value them.
-think positive. feel confident.
-find something you like to watch...I watch final fantasy 7 cutscenes. the ending of crisis core really taught me a lot.
-remember there are people out there similar to you. you're not alone
-this is the only chance you'll have in life. enjoy it!

I won't tell you to try not to think about it. the more you try the more you think. just think oppositely. think about everyone around you. so many people have no homes to live in or food to eat. some don't even have parents. as for the boy you were talking about, I'm sure he didn't mean what he said. try to talk more to him. and if that doesn't work, try to find a friend you can trust. remember you can always fight out of this. and sometimes crying is good. it lets out all the pain. find a personal place and cry it all out. and don't be afraid to go to school. find a counselor. she/he may be able to help you. I hope this advice had helped you. May god bless you.

well in my oipnion I think you have plenty of time,you must kill your time before it kill you, try to find what you are into,there so much things you havent done yet you are 15 and young you still have energey, do something even if it was stupid atleast you've done something you can remember at the end of the day,trust me sweetie we all have been in moments that we wanted to kill ourselves, but killing your self isnt worth it you have to hold on and be strong, clear your mind, dont expect anything from anybody, about that boy he is not even close to that worthiness, and I have movie you should watch 'My Sassy Girl' watch it.take care and always think about what you going to do is it right or wrong god bless u