How to handle a really bad breakup?

how do you handle really hard breakups? because me and my camp boyfriend broke up after camp ended all because we live pretty far from each other, and now we're friends with benefits. I'm fine with it and all but I'm kinda not. you know? I can't handle...

not seeing him anymore. and then I handled it the wrong way. I turned emo, then I started cutting, then I became anorexic because I could not eat too depressed, and now I'm writing poetry which is alright because its not hurting me, but my mom read them and now I have to go to psychology which makes everything worse. help :[

I thought when you break up you don't see each other anymore. You're making it tough for yourself by remaining friends let alone friends with benefits. The last part just seems to me to be totally stupid. No wonder you're having emotional problems which is manifesting itself in self-harm and eating disorders. Does your camp ex-boyfriend have the similar problems or is he just enjoying the friends with benefits part?

For one thing, I have a big problem with the friends with benefits thing. Nothing good ever really comes out of it. It always leaves one person having deep emotional feelings (usually the girl) and wants more than just sex! But of course its great for the guy. Hes probably having sex with other girls as well. Especially since he isnt in a commited relationship. You are putting yourself in a very vulnerable position for getting hurt!

hmm so I should just try to forget and move on?
because thats what I'm trying to do now.. its sorta working.. but then the psychology reminds me of him for some reason and makes me depressed :\
I hate my mom sometimes

ofcourse you will have to talk about him sometimes in psychology because he has been part of your life and you need to deal with that. its all part of the healing and moving on process. if you don't deal with it, it will affect you in other ways later on. so the thing is to confront/deal with it, learn from it and move on with your life. maybe your mom is concerned about you that's why she read your writings because of what you've done to yourself in the past. I might be wrong.

take care