Just some random question

Has anyone ever wondered why things have to be the way that they are in a serious way. Say if something bad is happening to you or if you were having the worse fay ever and you just wondered why things just had to be so messed up. Im not suicidal or anything but I constantly wonder why certain things have to happen at all and why all the negative things or people wont leave my life. It messes me up and it has been for years. I try to forget and move on, I would say I would forgive and forget but in this case I cant fnd myself to forgive. I cope by writing out my every thought and listening to music it generally helps but then what happens if it doesnt, half the time I feel like im going to crack and just explode I feel trapped half the time I breathe and all I make sure people see now is a fake smiling face just to get thru the day.does anyone feel the same?

I always wonder why!

I felt the same last night, but, I think that today its better, last year I also felt the same, but I try to concentrate in the positive things too. there is always something good in all the bad things happening in your life, they are just overshadowed when you start thinking about the bad things only, I know its kind a silly but I always say thanks at the end of the day for good things I have, like im not dead, I have ate today, the sky was beautiful, my mom did a really nice dessert, a cute guy smiled at me I know its not a big deal, , but I kind a feel that this small satisfactions, brings me a weird feeling of peace, and I feel worry free in my life.

I don't really think about it

best advice I can give you is to stop caring. I have and the world looks like a much better place. no matter how hard you try everything is going to go back to the way it was. stop caring and your eyes will open.

yea' I have, I look too much into this one particular subject (that im not going to say what, I feel its my own personal thing), and the deeper I look into it, the deeper I get myself into, instead of just takin what has been said, I take it for the moment, and then I start thinkin of the what if's, and then I go back, research get in trouble ( meanin worryin), have to run to my peepes, and for them to talk and research what I did, just for them to say, you have nothing to worry bout...I take it, for a while and it starts all over, im glade I have such patient peeps, I get on my own nerves, I wish I could just take what they say and not worry, and just forget but I cant, I mean I eventually do, but it just takes a long while, im really workin on it harder, trying to not look into things and just take what is bein said and not 2nd guessin that person, the person would know, not bunch of other people who doesn know nothing bout them, but yea' I think bout it too, and I think ill take the person up above me advice, to stop carin, maybe ill be in a better mood or happier more