Im so scared for my baby

Im so scared Im bout 4 and half months pregnant and the first 2 months I was going to have an abortion. Well I went twice to get it done and couldnt do it and decided to have the child and keep it but while I was opting to abort I was doing some drugs...

to cope with everything. I have since stopped everything but I'm so scared, has anyone got any advice or been in my shoes? If your just going to judge and criticize me dont bother replying.

Simply a Rose to brighten your day,
And maybe lessen the cares in your way;
And also, too, to help you to know,
That in knowing you, many others grow!

 
Hopefully you stopped the drugs without harming the baby. I think you are far enough along where you could go and get a sonogram to see how the baby is doing. Also, make sure you are eating healthy and taking extra vitamins.

since using drugs has been your way of coping with things, I would reccomend you start counselling to learn new ways of de-stressing. you should start now because when that baby comes, you are going to be STRESSED. honestly. and if you think that a baby is going to be just to much for you to handle, there's no shame in putting it up for adoption. that's better than getting frustrated and doing more drugs when you're a mommy. think about your options, and go get that counselling.

You did the right thing - see your Doctor and get your questions answered...I wish you and your new baby the very best !!

As far as whether you have harmed your baby, it depends on what kinds of drugs you used. You can tell me in a funmail if you don't want to answer that here.

Very well said ethmer. I definitely couldn't have done it better myself.

Coke acid pot loratabs and x aswell as cigaretts I'm so terrified, I want a healthy baby I stopped everything about 2 months after when I had decided to keep the child, I'm happy with my decision I'm just so scared I shouldn't have been so stupid and now I'm paying for it with me worrying I just hope my child doesn't have to pay for my stupid mistakes/ and again If your not going to help please don't reply I think I am already judging and criticizing myself enough and more than anyone else could or should. Thank you