I've become the living dead...

I don't know what to do. Hear me out here please...

I've become really numb. Like...emotionless! I've lost love for EVERYTHING! Myself, my family, even Syn! I'm on everyone's bad side it seems! And I don't even CARE!

I'm serious, I don't love...

ANYONE anymore and I don't even care if it hurts their feelings! What's wrong with me? I mean...a nuclear bomb could just wipe out everyone and I wouldn't even CARE!

I didn't even pray last night! That's the first time in...literally years! But honestly...who the hell am I praying to? I don't know whats going on here!

Don't say depression and bipolar disorder and all that other crap. There's something VERY wrong! For me to not even love Syn anymore? It's like...I'm here, but I'm really DEAD! And I cried myself to sleep last night...and ripped all the pics off my wall and trashed a lot of my cool things.

Can anyone tell me why all of a sudden I've become the living dead?
OMG, just someone please...

Okay what did you do the day you noticed this it could have something to do with that. Or you could need someone to be like you to help. Trust me

a friend you can talk to,
anytime
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Your just having a stage in your life. I usta get them. I prayed to god to take care of me and give me the strengh to get through them, and a few months later I did, I started getting them, then I got into horses and they have been my life since. God will take care of you, have faith

I think maybe you are just confused about life...what is purpose , why are you here those type of things. I don't want to say that your going through a phase because... but I'm still going to say that it's depression I know because I am diagnosed with manic depression. I was just like you you know I didn't care what people said or what they did because...well I didn't know the reason I just did. So it made me feel that people were against me nobody wanted to be friends with or that nobody loved me. It got to the point where I just couldn't take it and then I turned to cutting and then cutting turned into to suicide attempt and that landed me in a hospital which I hated. I am doing better and I am going to get through it...I'm telling you this because you really need to talk to somebody or everybody and open up as why you feel the way you feel. I personally think that it's something deeper behind your tears that you are scared to show. I know because behind my tears was me the REAL me, but I couldn't find that side of me because of those tears. I suggest to sit down with family and friends and let your emotions go. If you can't you can always talk to me.

I used to feel that way in my late teenage years. try no to trash your favorie stunff though because you might regret it later...trial and error experiance I hope you feel soon...I was going to say..I hope you feel better soon...but if your not feeling anything then, ..I guess we need to get you feeling again. just be patient. take it day by day...

The family and friends you speak of are non-existent.

And I'm tired of people blowing it off as a "phase" or depression.
Just because I am young, you all think it's a phase. Like being obsessed with something or not finding your true identity.

Look...it's not a phase. I used to be a loving and caring person. I hated to see anyone cry. Now I'm just...dead.
I couldn't care less.

I don't love anyone, and how do we even know there's a God? I really find it hard to believe.

I've been fed lies and hatred all my life, and all I do is cause people trouble. I don't know why I asked this question, it's not worth your time.

I think if you have these feelings you should talk to a councler. they atrn "quacks" they can seriously help you. Maybe a trained profesional can find a triger or something. these people got into this profession because they care about people. This could be depression and thats not something to "blow off" Depression is a serious thing. and it could be helped. and if its not depression then he or she should be able to hewlp you find what it is. I have 2 close family members who have seeked help and its helped emensly. If you dont know whats going on why not ask someone who knows about this stuff.

No offense to counselors or anything, but I really DO think they're useless. NO ONE can tell me about myself. I don't need some person I don't know analyzing me with a pencil and paper and drugging me up. Sorry, I'd rather live in my own hell.

Its called depression.
You maynot feel sad, but its still depression.
consilers may not help you, but they can presibe medication that will help.
Get some one who really knows about this stuff, help you.

"NO ONE can tell me about myself."

I dont want to offend you but if there is sosmething wrong with you and you cant figure it out than maybe you need someone else help. They dont analyze you wit pencil and paper. they are there to help. they cant force you to take anything

It's just something your going through right now... just part of being a teenager. you'll fade in and out of "love" and you'll go through MANY phases/mood changes and such during your teenage years.

If I hear the word "phase" from ONE more person, I'm going to reveal the ugly side of me! Believe me, if it was a phase, I'd see no reason for this. But my life has been LAME! No friends, terrible family. Dad is non-existent. I'm fat and ugly and everyone seems to hate me. I've been this way since freaking elementary school, it's just been getting WORSE!

Look I dont want to make anything worse but everyone of us has given you advice and all you have done is throw it back in our face. If you didnt want our advice than why did you ask. honestly im starting to think you just want attention. like I said seek councling. we are telling you what will help you and your just blowing us off and "going to reveal the ugly side of me!" come on

You may hate to hear it but hun, they are right! This is just a teenage phase and it is indeed hard, but very normal. ALL teens go through it! Mood/personality changes are also normal/common. I don't mean to make things worse, I'm just letting you know what's true.