I feel disgusting.

I feel worse then ever!!!
I have been diagnosed with an eating disorder, I then refused to eat so now I had an opperation and I have now got this ugly feeding tube in my stomach!
it is sooo disgusting.
and now I am probably putting weight o by the...

minute.

but I feel so disgusting, I feel like I am repulsive with this ugly tube in my stomach!
I want to get better I really do but when I try to eat I just can't.
but I hate this tube.
it's making me feel sooo horrible!

sorry

no one said getting over an eating disorder would be easy
but your talking the first step
so wether you chose to take it or not, be proud that your taking it now
its going to take time
your body needs time to re-adjust to eating food and keeping it down
but stick it out, pretty soon your weight and body should be back on track
and hopefully then youll begin to eat right and change the way you think about yourself
youve got the opportunity to change your life around right now
so dont waste it

Getting over an eating disorder is not easy especially after an operation just saying that its going to take time so you can feel better...

I was sick once. I didn't eat much at that time. I made myself eat.

Theres an old joke I wish my parents hadn't started feeding me because its the one thing I'll never get over. It's just a cleaver saying except in your case. There are no easy answers for you. first believe that life is worth living. Then excluding yourself make notes on how this would be a better world. After that start looking at things in detail. example a table in your house. You see the table but do you see the table? If its wood do you see the forest where the tree came from? Do you see the lumber jack that cut down the tree? What was her form like. Do you see the truck driver that hauled the tree to the lumber yard? What was her build? Can you imagine the lumber yard worker who loaded the lumber fot the table on the railroad car and her build. Imagine the carpentry shop where the table was built and what each worker there looks like. All these people had to eat to get that table to your house and its suppose to be for families to eat at. Try that exercise with everything you see and you should see that eveything is dependent on other things as you will have to be with food.It is most of the time a wonderful life!

dude eat food. its g0000dd

Want to try something DIFFERENT ???
just do the following RIGHT NOW ;

1--chant 'hari om'(hari as in HURRY & om as in HOME without the 'H') do this repetedly & a point will come where you will feel like you just want to close your eyes ( in that case case do it).At this point increase the number of O in om like HARI OOOM & then HARI OOOM & so on.when you chant this VEDIC MANTRA then remain silent (no thinking!,fidgeting,moving,etc) for an amount of time taken to chant this one mantra.this looks very very simple but its effects are very very very large (even ALBERT EINSTEIN would not had imagine it !!!). this is called 'CHUP SADHANA' & I learned it from 'param pujya ASARAMJI bapu'.--->"http://www.asharam.org " also read JEEVAN RASAYAN a book from ---"http://hariombooks.goog... " tihs will help remove all weakness from you,believe me millions have obtained benefits from it ,literally.

note: women durimg their periods are not to chant OM but they can chant HARI

this I say to you on basis of teachings of 'param pujya ASARAMJI bapu'

http://www.ashram.org
http://www.hariomgroup.net
http://www.hariomgroup.org
http://hariomgroup.googlepages.com/rishi_prasad

aww honey it cant be that bad can it how long are you in hospital for?
Robbie
xx.