Did I do the right thing in telling him??

Well. I told my boyfriend about my eating disorder. It was probably the worst thing I had ever done in my whole entire life. The look on his face when I told him was horrible, I will never forget it. I will tell you how it went down. I told him yesterday and yesterday was our 3 year anniversary. I got home from work and he went into the kitchen sort of area and he was there and he cooked like this romantic meal there was candles and flowers the whole lot. Well yeah and when we ate dinner I kinda sat there for a little bit hesitating, I really didn’t want to eat it, and he said to me I hope you like the food, I spent all day cooking it (I felt like he was guilting my into eating it.) any way so I ate it, it was horrible, fat and carbs everything. But I ate it (but got rid of it later) any ways. That night we were laying in bed I was in his arms it was perfect. I just wanted to lay there forever. Anyway for some reason I started to think about what everyone was saying to me (on this website) about how I need to tell him or I will push him away. All of a sudden tears just started to run out of my eyes, I couldn’t help it. And I was hoping that he didn’t notice. But unfortunately he did. So he asked me what was wrong, and I was like nothing I am fine, and he wouldn’t drop it. So I gave in (I wish I didn’t) and I said to him, you remember how the other day you told me that you love me so much and that you want me to be able to tell you everything, my deepest secretes. And he was like yesss.? His face just had this look of like she is about to tell me, in a way he looked happy. Anyway I was like well I feel like I have to tell you something, but before I tell you this I want you to know that there is nothing to worry about and that it is all under control, so I don’t want you to freak out okay. And he promised me that he wouldn’t. And so I thought I was just going to come out and say it, so I did. I just said well the truth is I have an eating disorder, anorexia and bulimia. I have for about 2 years. And he just looked at me and started to cry. His face was a face I will never forget, he looked like I stabbed him, like I didn’t something that he would never be able to forgive me. And he said to me. I know, I know you do. I was like what? He was like I am not stupid you exercise all the time, you never eat and I hear you throwing up all the time, I was so embarrassed. At that point I wanted to just die. And he told me that I needed to get help and I told him that I don’t. We talked and talked for like the whole night. I ended up just falling asleep in his arms. And I havnt seen him at all today when I woke up he was gone and he hasn’t been back since.

Anyway. My question is did I do the right thing, because I feel like I didn’t. I feel like I hurt him so much, the look on his face was unbearable. What if things change now and he doesn’t look at me the same way. Did I do the right thing? Tell me I did. I need someone to tell me I did.

you cant keep hiding it at least now he nows you can work past it.
keeping it bottled up wouldnt have done any good so you did do the right thing.
as for him not being there well he may want time to think things through and see if there is any way to help you.

u deffinetly did the right thing!!, hunyuve been hiding it, and finaly he knows does it not feel like a whole load fo weight has been lifted off your shoulders?

You are right in telling him. But dont be mad if hes upset with you on the fact you wont get help. He cares about you and is worried for you.
You have a serious disease, and its not under control, or else you wouldnt be throwing up. Please get help because I [and your boyfriend] want you healthy!!
Take care!