Do these flashbacks mean i was raped?

I go to boarding school but a few nights ago only a few select people in the school were invited to like the most popular guys room in school for like a little party. he is 2 years above me so I hardly know him but I went anyway.
his best friend who I...

have always fancied so much who is so so so hot gave me a drink and I got drunk and we started kissing. I passed out later after several drinks, this sounds so wierd but the next day I kept on having flashbacks of him forcing himself onto me, but I dont actually remember him doing it? well he asked me if I wanted to be with him and like I so so so so do because he is like one of the coolest guys in skl, BUT I cant help thinking of my disturbing flashbacks?? what do I do?

You should NEVER compromise yourself for the sake of being "cool". The coolest thing is when people have the confidence to say no and do what's right in spite of what other people are doing. So, basically as it stands now, you can either;
1~go out with this guy. people may think you're cool for a while, but it will be fleeting at best and from what it sounds like you will be put into bad situations.
OR
2~you could realize that you are worth so much more, and that self respect and virtues will last far longer than popularity.

Well, um, live with it. Obviously, you don't mind being with him even with the possibility of having being raped by him. If you're not saying no to him when you're sober, would you have said no when you were drunk? Highly unlikely that it was even rape - probably just a really bad sex.

Also, it is very likely that he slipped the "date rape" drug into your drink, and you should be tested for STD's and pregnancy.

I think it was not a rape, and if you will go to the most popular guy's room again, this will happen to you again.

They don't mean you were raped...is probably just you being paranoid.

My best advice? Don't drink with people you don't know well, regardless of how popular they are.

you could have had sex with him, by your will, but were so waisted that you don't remember doing it with him.