What if i love my husband but also like women?

me and my husband have been together for almost 5 years. he is the only person that can make me smile and laugh. my face still hurts all the time because I cant stop smiling. he is beautiful. he is the only man I have ever been attracted to. my whole...

life I have been attracted to women. I have never seen a man I was attracted to. but he was different. I actually startred dating him in our 8th grade year. I did it because I wanted to change my impulses. but of coarse I am unable to change them, I cant help them. we make beautiful love and he can please me.. I just am having a void that I want so badly to fill. I have never been with a women. I dont think I ever will be because of my pledge of celebacy to my god.. my husband. I love him to much to cheat on him or do thid even openly, like he told me I could... I guess all I am saying is... can some one please please help me???

Dear 072306,
Today we know that our sexual preferences are biological and as you have found out pretending they don't exists or trying to change how you are biologically born doesn't work. It is what it is and at some point you are going to have to be honest with him about it. There is no type of medication etc. that can change you. It's like having brown contacts over blue eyes...the eyes are still blue you are just covering them up. But counselling can sure help you get through this...I suggesting making an appointment as soon as possible. Speaking with someone who can help you recognizes your emotions and teach you how to communicate these feelings to your partner. It is never easy when you haven't been true to yourself for this length of time. Please do not bring another woman into the picture like some will suggest. This has proven to quickly dissolve a relationship.
Sue...good luck

I think one thing you could do is kinda find out if he is interested in having another girl join you two. Some guys think that is very sexy.