Confused and lost, please help me figure out what to do. i need help

I am currently in a relationship with a man that I have been on and off with for a little over 2 years. Well, I am not sure if I am with him because I want to be, or if I am with him because I am on the rebound from the last guy I was with. Jon...

completely tore my heart apart when he just left me without saying a word to me. I unexpectedly fell "in love" with Jon. I never would have expected that to happen. I am still completely and totally "in love" with Jon, and we broke up on March 31st of this year (we have been on and off for over 10 years). Dustin (the guy that I am currently with) is not living with me. He needed a place to stay, and that is how we got back together. He doesn't help clean or anything. He doesn't make me feel like he wants to be with me. I feel like he is sleeping with someone else because I am lucky if I get sex once a week. It is usually every two weeks or more. I am the type of person who needs to be shown that a man wants to be with me, I need to be shown lots of affection. Maybe it is because of everything I went through before I was even 13 years old, I don't know. My children are completely attached to Dustin even more now. They don't have their real fathers in their lives, so they think of him as their a father figure. I find myself wanting to be with Jon more and more every day. I went out last weekend, and I ran into Jon. I wanted to go up to him and beg for another chance. My little brother found out, and he told me to let Jon come to me. I am so confused about my situation. I do love Dustin, but I am not "in love" with him. Jon completely and totally has my heart. I think he always will. I experienced a love with Jon that I had never experienced before, and I am sure I will never ever feel again. It is like Jon is my soul mate. My dilema is, do I stay with Dustin because of my situation with my children and all, or do I try to get Jon back into my life. I was completely and totally happy with Jon. I was always smiling. I feel a void now that Jon and I are not together, that no one can fill. My other dilema, is that Jon doesn't want my children to get attached to him, and he doesn't want to get attached to my children. So when we were together, we were together Friday and Saturday nights only. The kids would go to Grandma's and Grandpa's for the night. I tried to keep the kids and Jon apart. I am completely and totally "in love" with Jon, but He doesn't want anything to do with my children. My children are compeletely and totally happy with Dustin, and I don't want them to lose that. What am I supposed to do? I am afraid to tell Dustin that I don't want to be in a relationship right now because what if after I do tell him that, I find myself wanting to be with him, but then it is to late?

Help me, please!!!

tcr

If you really think about this situation, Jon does not see a future with you. And it doesn't look too good with Justin either.

Anyone who wants a future with you would have been friendly with your kids. Just think... your kids will be with you for maybe the next 20 years, could you continue with Jon as he wants to now? Something would break and snap because of the kids and your need to make them whole and happy.

Think about your future. Yes, relationships are about wanting to feel needed, sex, love etc. But if your lives together are not practical as well, what's the point?