ok I think your becoming a bit too much like a poser, even saying "I want to be emo" is poser-ish, I think what you want is to be scene, so download some Bless The Fall, some As I Lay Dying. buy some skinny jeans, a studded belt, get a "bring me the horrizon" t-shirt. get a striped sweatshirt, buy some either vans slip-ons or baps or something, get your lip pirced or something, learn how to hxc dance, and learn the deffinition of "break down" also just being urself could be cool too.